Well I made it. My posting was sporadic, spasmodic, and sometimes somniferous...but I made it here. I began this journey for many reasons. To focus some time on me and not my job. To seek new and different connections. To try to be honest about my various anxieties and interests. To exercise my writing skills beyond the typical snoozing topic of engineering brochures that is my livelihood.
I succeeded in some ways, and failed in others. I opened my blog initially in secret and slowly expanded my readership to colleagues, friends and family. Making this decision wasn't easy - it meant sometimes censoring my thoughts when I had originally intended this to be an unfettered unedited expose of my emotions, thoughts, and deeds. But in the end, it was the best choice. It allowed me to share an important part of my life with people who are dear to me, and kept me honest in a whole other way than anonymity ever could.
Over the past year I've come to love my husband more every day, appreciate the gifts in my life, find an outlet for the complaints, and discovered some new friends who were willing to come along for the ride.
I sometimes feel I skim along the surface of life, and in the next 12 months I hope to dive a little deeper. Not too deep...not at first...but maybe just to snorkel level. We'll leave the major scuba gear for a later exploration. At that point, perhaps, I will open another blog totally anonymously, and try a more unrecognizable diary of the deep dark recesses of my brain.
Until then, stay tuned for more angst, sappy sentimentality, snarky complaints, and sweet hubby stories...not to mention quite a few more anxious moments.