VERY interesting episode of HOUSE last night with the blogger who was sick. The debate about the value of connecting with people with common interests vs. recording (and living) your life as a voyeuristic exercise was fascinating. And in the end, the woman who reveals everything about herself on the internet failed to reveal the one thing that would help the diagnosis because "People don't want to read about that."
I love blogging and I totally related to the character when she said, "I hate that you don't have a blog, I never know what you are thinking."
I've always been more comfortable with the written word than the spoken. And while I certainly edit my writing and my content here, I'm more likely to remain silent in a verbal conversation because I'm not sure I trust (a) how to say at that moment what I want to say and (b) how to handle the reaction I might get. I mean let's face it, while I have luckily not had to do it yet on this site, I can just delete any responses I get! No need to engage in a lengthy debate or uncomfortable confrontation.
Am I short changing people in my life who don't read my blog? Am I short changing people in my life who are represented in my blog? Do I edit too little? too much? Do I share too little? too much?
I have one very very dear friend who doesn't read my blog. She asks me if that bothers me. I always answer no. And it doesn't, from an audience readership perspective. She is and always will be my dear friend. But I feel that since we don't see each other, or talk, as often as we'd like, that she is missing out on participating in my life. Her life is busy and blogging is not a part of her life. I don't feel the need to force her into it. It's ok that she doesn't know about what was on HOUSE last night and what I thought about it, But, she also doesn't know my cousin passed away yet. And that's important. And that may be IS more my failing than hers. Pick up the phone Wenderina. Stop by her house. She lives 1 mile away. Blogging may be a little bit of a social crutch that I have to work around.
But hey, I haven't got all the answers, and from what I can see, you all don't either. For someone like me who has long work hours, a shy attitude toward meeting new people (outside of work - where for some reason I'm more outgoing), and no kids to create that mommy network that adds to your community, this has been a rewarding experience.
I get to say what I think - or at least what I want to share about what I think. Family and friends who read this get to keep up with the big and more often the little things in my life. I get to purge emotions. Laugh about little foibles. Write something down other than a christmas letter capsule of a year or a technical engineering proposal.
I'm ok with my blog approach. The character on HOUSE was a little over the top. What about you and your blog? Is your relationship healthy?